feeling:happy.. yesterday was a good day..

though of the dayit's been a LONG time since i've written in thisUPDATEholy crap, it's been forever and a half since i last wrote in this bitch.. ummmM.. since fourth of july.. i dont even remeber what i've been doing since that day.. good god.. well, time to force out all the past event and write then in this bitch so that i'll be able to look back and be like "oh i remeber that".. haha.. solo emsemble & honor choir... holy shit man.. it was a LIFE CHANGING experience.. good lord.. okay, well first off kinnick show choir sure does kick ass.. out of 15 songs performed, we got 8 golds... and out of 10 audition tapes for honor choir, we got 6 people in.. holy shit man.. that's crazy.. when monique&alana&i got gold for our first performance, the trio "she sings".. it was crazy.. the judge said nothing negative because went on about how beautiful the song was, and how we were beautiful, and how our voices were so differnt but amazingly blended.. and the for my solo "ave maria" she said it was angelic.. and yeah.. and for monique&i's duet they said is was amazing and taht we had "sublime moments".. and then for honor choir.. monique&marshall&brian&woody&jessica&i all got in.. it was one of the best days i've had in a long time.. yesterday & today well, yesterday was amazing.. we went to harajuku (jess, tee, me, sam, jeff, thomas) and had a tour by a guys that loved to talk and take pictures... which didnt bother me much before but then got old after a while.. and we ate crepes which were so goooood.. and then we all went back onbase (except jess) and broke up into our separate ways.. then sam i and chilled for a while.. :).. it was fun.. todayi'm going to work.. i hope that fucker david isnt there, he pisses me off...thoughts.x the sleepover at miyoko's house was kick ass.. chels&monique&miyoko.. the offbase thing was crazy.. hahah you people are crazy.x hopefully miyoko's mom goes on another vaca, so we can all do that again.x i need to start running again.. cross country i need to you start again.x i really like sam.....

feeling:this summer so far sucks ass.. dude i miss everyone that left.. MONICA!!.. JANELLE.. TYLER.. you mofos need to come backkthough of the day"jessica the closest thing you could get to being a badass is by touching bianca".. one of the heffas so far in the summer this shit is bananas.. lol.. dude i've seriously been doing nothing BUT WORKING.. gosh damnit.. it's been a preetty hard couple of weeks too... dude this summer is by far the suckiest.. i just want school to start, just so that i can become a fucking nerd.. lol.. dude i'm going to devote all my energies to school.. and friends/family.. and some other shit.. NO MORE DRAMA for me bitches.. i refuse to be apart of any of it.. haha.. MIYOKO, i'm craving ur mommyz bread and coconut oil and honey.. dude that shit was good.. thoughts.x i miss my long hair...x i dont want my sister to go to college yet...x i need to go shopping

anna, jaimie, mee........  cruz, robert, patrick, woody.............. stuart

miyoko......aly.......jaimie.....

patrick..... then a whole buncho people...

omg... look at all these pictures from last years production of "dont be afraid of the darK"... oh man, it brings backk so many memories.. PATRICK.. STUART.. JAIMIE.. everyone from last year.. man it's so sad...

<---me and misssaaaa...

feeling:fed up, i'm tired of putting myself out there for "this person" only to be messed with in return.. i'm tired of thinking about the same things over and over again not being able to consentrate on other things, i'm through with it..though of the dayNever pretend to a love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command.. Alan Watts past couple of dayz... well been pretty occupied with all this lip sync and choir stuff.. good lord i cannot wait intill yo-hi day is over and done with.. gahhh.. hahaha... and i cannot wait until our spring concert is overrr.. muahaha.. man though i knoe for sure i'm going to just bust out crying.. I heart you peoplez in choir even if you all can drive me mad.. haha, been having some pretty interestting conversations with momo & nelle they are some pretty nuts mofos.. hahha.. recently been updated on how alot of people are.. i love you heffas... grrr.. i want school to end, but then i dont want school to end.. same for lip sync.. i want it to end, but then i dont.. for no reason.. tehehe.. mann.. can you guys believe that SCHOOL IS ALMOST OVERRR?!.. gosh, it went by so effin fast, i'm knoe i'm going to cry alot over the nest few weeks... i feel like crying now... oh man... thoughts.x my sister is graduating.. i dont want her to leave home, i'm not ready for her to go....x show choir is ending soon.. and gregory will soon be off to europe, damn him and his mini-me.. lol... both are so lucky.. damnit momo, we need to hide in their luggagex i start work sooon... WHOO HOO!! waitressing is going to be funnn..

feeling:i uno.. i uno how i should feel about certain things.. should i have these feelings?.. or should i forget about them?though of the dayLearn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow, and never stop questioning.. Albert Einstein weekend "cause you are my forever love, watching me, from up above.." good god josh groban is a genius.. this is the song i was listening to when i had my break down... gah.. i hate it when you are on a high for a limited amount of time, only to be brought back down even lower than what you used to be.. i dont know how i'm supposed to feel... should i get over it or should i hold on.. jezzzzzzzeeeeeee.. but on a happier note, the production of ten little indians went grrreat, i realised that to be a teckie is actually a lot harder than i assumed it to be.. gah, next production i'm SOO going to be oh so helpful to the teckies.. haha.. yeeeeeeeaaaaaaayyyyyyy.. and we really need a freakin cast party for far east drama!!!.. goodness people.. we REALLY need one!.. gah, i miss okinowa.. we were oh so happy there.. hahah.. good time bitches.. haha.. it's like you come back to yoko and all that boredum and drama comes back.. thoughts.x i finally cut my hair!! yeay!.. i was at first complaining that it was too short.. now for some reason i want it shorter.....x lip sync is coming up soon.. gah we really need to get startedx dude, i need money for disney land!!... if my parents say i cannot go, ima go anyway.. hahah..

feeling: out of it.. dude i've been so weird lately.. like i say things at one moment.. and the next moment it's like wtf?.. why the hell did i just say that.. and the things i'm say are extremely random...

though of the dayonly monique could pull of bright orange flipflops and a purple shirt.. muahahah spring break actually.. spring break has been very boring, but very relaxing... i've havent completely made up for all the hours of sleep i lost during the musical.. but i'm satisfied.. i honestly should start working out, but i either am too lazy, or i procrastinate.. which is horrible, i know.. Just to get it out there.. *coughmoniquecaughjanelle*.. guys we NEED NEW TOPICS to talk about.. i'm honestly getting tired of talking about the same things over and over again.. i honestly DONT want to talk about these little issues.. grr... dude, i need to join a dancing class.. yes a dancing class.. i'm thinking salsa.. or maybe some other ballroom dancing.. ANYTAKERS?!.. dude.. i DO NOT want school to start on monday.. i want to sleep in forever.. grr... hahahthoughts.x i really need to cut my hair.. i'm tired of dealing with it...x i know what i'm singing for talent show!!!.. YEAY!!.. everyone come and watch the talent show on tuesday.x i need to stop procrastinating.. grr